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For those people brave enough to stay and read this for whatever reason, perhaps the warning is too tempting, prepare for me to talk about ballbusting and why I like it, you were warned. Now the term should be pretty self explanatory, but for the sake of detail I will explain. Ballbusting is common in the BDSM community, it is typically between a female Dom and male sub and could be a variety of things. Such as kicks, punches, slaps, biting, squeezing, and anything else that involves being hit in the balls. I have watched videos, yes this means that I have watch porn before *GASP*, and it really turns me on.
The thought of a sexy, beautiful womyn hitting me where it hurts with anything, but kicking me there with high heels is the biggest turn on, you were warned people, just really turns me on! Now this is a big deal because this involves something happening to me below the belt in a sexual context, something that I wouldn't dream about doing since I tend to hate what I have down there. This is really one of the only ways that I am comfortable with being touched there. I am not at all comfortable with someone going down on me, that is way to much of a male thing to have happen. Other touching maybe possible though. I am slightly conflicted about the whole issue.
Seems almost wrong that I should get turned on by this. The act itself seems very male orientated and that feels very strange and weird too me. Weird is a good thing in my book most of the time, but this is hard. I'm trying to use it as a way to get more comfortable with the fact that I am stuck with it and that I may as well get as much pleasure out of it as I can, but its still hard. I justify being turn on by this by thinking that I am hurting my balls and that makes me feel better, because I really don't like them. Also I like pain, so it turns on my masochistic side. That helps to a point, but I still very weird about it.
Accepting a, traditionally, male aspect of my sexuality is hard. Maybe the male part of who I am is in large part sexual. Makes sense given that the part of me that is capable of getting sexual aroused is male, but that is going by what most of society says and I'm not sure I am OK with going by what society thinks. I'm stuck between feeling like this might be the place where my male side fits and not wanting that to be true, because that is they way society would view it. Maybe society for once is right. It feels right to say that that is where my male side fits in it plays a part in my sexuality. How can it not be?
I'm not sure what it means, but I'm tired of trying to figure it out and I am just going to try to enjoy this new found aspect of my sexuality.
Thats all for now.
Bye.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Socialism 2010
Hello kiddies! Sorry it has been such a long time since I have written anything. My life is boring in the summer. My activism goes way down and I just don't have much to talk about. However, now I do have a bunch to talk about because of last weekend and plus some other recent developments in my life. I am going to split them up into two posts because they are two entirely different topics and doesn't seem right that I should talk about them both in just one post. For this one I am going to talk about the Socialism 2010 conference that I went to this weekend.
Socialism 2010 is a big left wing conference that takes place every year in Chicago (at least I'm pretty sure that is where it has always been). The International Socialist Organization (ISO) puts on this conference to bring together fellow left wing people to talk about a number of things all centering around the over throw of the capitalist system that is holding everyone back. I wasn't sure I really wanted to go at first, but I am so glad I did!
Money was a big reason why I didn't really want to go. Just signing up for the conference was $90, money that I did not have, and that doesn't even include the hotel room and gas. Luckily the ISO always does fundraising and two of my good friends in the ISO informed me that I didn't really have to worry about the money, that the fundraising would cover me. I felt like a giant mooch most of the weekend, but people kept telling me not to worry about it because that was what the fundraising was for. Another big reason for me being a tad hesitant was that I wasn't sure the ISO and their politics was for me.
I, like most of the United States, and most of the world, have grown up with the idea that capitalism good and socialism bad. Those ideas were something that I didn't really question and seldom thought about. This made it very hard for me to see myself in any kind of socialist movement. My friends told me that the conference would help me be able to see myself. That is pretty much what made me decide to go. Since the money thing was taken care of and with my friends assurance that it would help be able to see myself in the movement, I made the commitment to go. The conference started last Thursday and went until yesterday. I didn't make it down there in time for the first and only session on Thursday, but that was OK there was still a full three days of sessions to go too. I didn't get much sleep that first night, only like four hours, and so the next day I was extremely tired, but I still made it to every session that day.
The first one I went to was Sexuality and Capitalism. The talk was good, the speakers talked about how sexuality has changed over time and how capitalism has really limited us in how we can express ourselves. My only problem with it is that it seemed to be very cisnormative, meaning that it seemed to assume that everyone was cisgender (your physical sex matches your gender identity) and that they didn't seem to realize that when you through being trans into the mix, it complicates things further. We have to deal with the fact that our genitals don't fit to how we see ourselves and we have to do deal with the fact that our genitals might not be what our partners are looking for. I felt like a broken record that day. I was basically asking, where do trans people fit in all this?/what would a socialist world mean for trans people? I honestly wasn't sure, and didn't really feel like I got that question answered. There was one session that I didn't even bring that issue up cause it wasn't appropriate and that was Is Violence Necessary to Change Society? The speaker made a very compelling argument.
She argued that while at this point in the movement violence isn't necessary it shouldn't be taken off the table completely. The ruling class, ie capitalists, already uses violence to maintain the status quo even when we are peaceful and for us to say we will NEVER use violence is a terrible idea. Now I am not a fan of a violence, not a fan of war, but I think she has a point. For me violence shouldn't be used without trying other routs first. If we absolutely have too, I think violence should be a tactic. We should do EVERYTHING we can to try to get revolution to happen without violence, but we should keep that in our back pocket, so to speak, just in case we have too. Friday ended and though I thought it was very interesting discussions and talks, I was still having a very hard time seeing myself in the this movement. I hoped Saturday would be better.
I slept through the first session on Saturday. There wasn't anything that I felt like I absolutely needed to go to that session, so I caught up on my sleep. The second session I went to was What do Marxist Mean by Class? Interesting talk, but I didn't really feel like he answered the question. Seemed more like he was say "this is what it could be" more than what it is. He had a thick accent and maybe I just wasn't understanding him. The third session I went to was The Criss in Public School Education.
Education in this country is very near and dear to my heart. I wanted to be a high school English teacher for awhile. While my career goals are more geared toward college now, public education is still something that I care about a lot. The speakers talked about how there is an idea that the reason kids are failing is because of "bad and lazy teachers" rather than say poor funding for public schools. Schools are forced to compete with each other for funding and mainly gear there education toward doing well on the standardized tests that also evaluate teachers as well in order to get that money. The education system gears us up for how to take a fucking test, rather than actually learning anything. Some schools are so poorly funded that they don't have the resources to teach their students how to do that, but no, the teachers are the lazy ones. WTF! This talk at least started to get me fired up and seeing what the fuss was about, but I still didn't see myself in the movement. The fourth session I went to was The Peoples History of the Russian Revolution.
Very interesting stuff, but didn't really help in making me see myself in the movement. The last session I went to that day was Sex Wars: From McCarthyism to Prop 8 with Sherry Wolf. This was the session that helped see myself in this movement and the connections started to be made. The session was also the one that I was really looking forward too. She talked about the history of sexuality in this country and how capitalism helped to allow for people to develop LGBT identities while at the same time allowing for homophobia and transphobia as well. How the capitalist system pits workers against each other using those two things and prevents us from working together to take down capitalism. That made a hell of a lot of sense to me and the things started to click. The discussion after the talk was amazing as well. I got up and talked about how ENDA and another bill that failed to pass in New York was always focused on the bathroom issue and this insane fear that we are going to hurt people in the bathrooms and how they couldn't give a damn about my safety when I go into the bathroom. The session ended with all of us chanting. I can't remember what the chant was, but it was uplifting! From then on the conference was just amazing. My two friends, they are a couple and pool their resources, where nice enough to buy me Sherry Wolf's book Sexuality and Socialism, in which I have to hide from my father, pretty sure he would shit a brick if he saw that, and I got it signed by Sherry. The signature reads "Madwomyn- To Love and Revolution!" ^_^ Her session also gave me the quote of the conference. She was talking about the 1950s and the witch hunts and she said "There was nothing worse than a communist, Jewish, gay person" and she pointed at herself. Fucking amazing! She is SO funny!
The conference has helped me see where I fit into the socialist movement. I am part of the working class and I must work to make homophobia and transphobia go away so that the workers can work together to take down this capitalist system. Next year there is going to be a talk specifically about transgender issues and politics. I am really excited for that one. I feel more confidant about getting into the socialist and Marxist movements and I am very eager to learn more. I have three books Sherry's and to others to help in that learning. I am really excited ^__^
Thats all for now.
Byes!
P.S. The other issue I talked about in the beginning I will post about later. Also, at least 20 of the sessions will be posted on the website: WeAreMany.org if anyone is interested ^_^
Socialism 2010 is a big left wing conference that takes place every year in Chicago (at least I'm pretty sure that is where it has always been). The International Socialist Organization (ISO) puts on this conference to bring together fellow left wing people to talk about a number of things all centering around the over throw of the capitalist system that is holding everyone back. I wasn't sure I really wanted to go at first, but I am so glad I did!
Money was a big reason why I didn't really want to go. Just signing up for the conference was $90, money that I did not have, and that doesn't even include the hotel room and gas. Luckily the ISO always does fundraising and two of my good friends in the ISO informed me that I didn't really have to worry about the money, that the fundraising would cover me. I felt like a giant mooch most of the weekend, but people kept telling me not to worry about it because that was what the fundraising was for. Another big reason for me being a tad hesitant was that I wasn't sure the ISO and their politics was for me.
I, like most of the United States, and most of the world, have grown up with the idea that capitalism good and socialism bad. Those ideas were something that I didn't really question and seldom thought about. This made it very hard for me to see myself in any kind of socialist movement. My friends told me that the conference would help me be able to see myself. That is pretty much what made me decide to go. Since the money thing was taken care of and with my friends assurance that it would help be able to see myself in the movement, I made the commitment to go. The conference started last Thursday and went until yesterday. I didn't make it down there in time for the first and only session on Thursday, but that was OK there was still a full three days of sessions to go too. I didn't get much sleep that first night, only like four hours, and so the next day I was extremely tired, but I still made it to every session that day.
The first one I went to was Sexuality and Capitalism. The talk was good, the speakers talked about how sexuality has changed over time and how capitalism has really limited us in how we can express ourselves. My only problem with it is that it seemed to be very cisnormative, meaning that it seemed to assume that everyone was cisgender (your physical sex matches your gender identity) and that they didn't seem to realize that when you through being trans into the mix, it complicates things further. We have to deal with the fact that our genitals don't fit to how we see ourselves and we have to do deal with the fact that our genitals might not be what our partners are looking for. I felt like a broken record that day. I was basically asking, where do trans people fit in all this?/what would a socialist world mean for trans people? I honestly wasn't sure, and didn't really feel like I got that question answered. There was one session that I didn't even bring that issue up cause it wasn't appropriate and that was Is Violence Necessary to Change Society? The speaker made a very compelling argument.
She argued that while at this point in the movement violence isn't necessary it shouldn't be taken off the table completely. The ruling class, ie capitalists, already uses violence to maintain the status quo even when we are peaceful and for us to say we will NEVER use violence is a terrible idea. Now I am not a fan of a violence, not a fan of war, but I think she has a point. For me violence shouldn't be used without trying other routs first. If we absolutely have too, I think violence should be a tactic. We should do EVERYTHING we can to try to get revolution to happen without violence, but we should keep that in our back pocket, so to speak, just in case we have too. Friday ended and though I thought it was very interesting discussions and talks, I was still having a very hard time seeing myself in the this movement. I hoped Saturday would be better.
I slept through the first session on Saturday. There wasn't anything that I felt like I absolutely needed to go to that session, so I caught up on my sleep. The second session I went to was What do Marxist Mean by Class? Interesting talk, but I didn't really feel like he answered the question. Seemed more like he was say "this is what it could be" more than what it is. He had a thick accent and maybe I just wasn't understanding him. The third session I went to was The Criss in Public School Education.
Education in this country is very near and dear to my heart. I wanted to be a high school English teacher for awhile. While my career goals are more geared toward college now, public education is still something that I care about a lot. The speakers talked about how there is an idea that the reason kids are failing is because of "bad and lazy teachers" rather than say poor funding for public schools. Schools are forced to compete with each other for funding and mainly gear there education toward doing well on the standardized tests that also evaluate teachers as well in order to get that money. The education system gears us up for how to take a fucking test, rather than actually learning anything. Some schools are so poorly funded that they don't have the resources to teach their students how to do that, but no, the teachers are the lazy ones. WTF! This talk at least started to get me fired up and seeing what the fuss was about, but I still didn't see myself in the movement. The fourth session I went to was The Peoples History of the Russian Revolution.
Very interesting stuff, but didn't really help in making me see myself in the movement. The last session I went to that day was Sex Wars: From McCarthyism to Prop 8 with Sherry Wolf. This was the session that helped see myself in this movement and the connections started to be made. The session was also the one that I was really looking forward too. She talked about the history of sexuality in this country and how capitalism helped to allow for people to develop LGBT identities while at the same time allowing for homophobia and transphobia as well. How the capitalist system pits workers against each other using those two things and prevents us from working together to take down capitalism. That made a hell of a lot of sense to me and the things started to click. The discussion after the talk was amazing as well. I got up and talked about how ENDA and another bill that failed to pass in New York was always focused on the bathroom issue and this insane fear that we are going to hurt people in the bathrooms and how they couldn't give a damn about my safety when I go into the bathroom. The session ended with all of us chanting. I can't remember what the chant was, but it was uplifting! From then on the conference was just amazing. My two friends, they are a couple and pool their resources, where nice enough to buy me Sherry Wolf's book Sexuality and Socialism, in which I have to hide from my father, pretty sure he would shit a brick if he saw that, and I got it signed by Sherry. The signature reads "Madwomyn- To Love and Revolution!" ^_^ Her session also gave me the quote of the conference. She was talking about the 1950s and the witch hunts and she said "There was nothing worse than a communist, Jewish, gay person" and she pointed at herself. Fucking amazing! She is SO funny!
The conference has helped me see where I fit into the socialist movement. I am part of the working class and I must work to make homophobia and transphobia go away so that the workers can work together to take down this capitalist system. Next year there is going to be a talk specifically about transgender issues and politics. I am really excited for that one. I feel more confidant about getting into the socialist and Marxist movements and I am very eager to learn more. I have three books Sherry's and to others to help in that learning. I am really excited ^__^
Thats all for now.
Byes!
P.S. The other issue I talked about in the beginning I will post about later. Also, at least 20 of the sessions will be posted on the website: WeAreMany.org if anyone is interested ^_^
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The bathroom issue
Hey kiddies, sorry I haven't written anything in awhile, summer is always a slow time for me in pretty much every way. I hate it, I wish it was over. A quick update about what is going on in my life. I am still looking for that job to get me by these months. I have a couple of leads this week and into the weekend, wish me luck! I am finally going to meet in person the girl I like this next Monday and I am SUPER EXCITED!! And lastly, a friend of mine is going to do my hair. This is the look I am going for http://coollonghairstyles.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/carrie-underwood.jpg I have never been a huge fan of the look, but two of my friends think it would look good on me. One said it would soften my face and highlight it as well. The best part is shes going to do it for the low low college student friend price of..............FREE! I figure I will let her use me as her giant human doll, if I don't like it I don't have to keep it. K, thats pretty much all that is new in my life. Now on to what I really want to talk about and that is an article another friend made me aware of. http://www.advocate.com/News/Daily_News/2010/06/08/Trans_Rights_Bill_Dies_in_NY_Senate_Commitee/
The article talks about a New York bill that would have made it illegal to fire or deny housing to transgender people on the basis that they are trans. The bill had already passed the state assembly and hopes were high that the bill would pass the senate. Sadly, and yet unsurprisingly, the bill failed to pass the senate. The final vote was 12 against to 11 for. All the Republicans, unsurprisingly, voted against it and so did Dem Ruben Diaz. Had Ruben Diaz voted yes, the bill would have passed, but no the spineless fuck voted no and thus the transphobic assholes win again. The BIG concern for those who voted against bathroom use/other gender-segregated places. Basically, what is between our legs.
Unwarranted fears about people with penises going into the womyn's bathroom and what could happened, despite the fact that there is NO proof that anything would happen, other than us going to the fucking bathroom! Trans people are basically sexual deviants in these peoples eyes, especially transwomyn. Let me explain something to those out there that think that a transwomyn would EVER hurt someone with that fucking thing in our pants. A lot of us have a very strong hatred of the thing. Touching it very often grosses us out, some don't even see it as apart of them. Its for peeing and thats it. A lot of us go to great pains to hide it because we hate it so much. With all that said, what makes you think we would EVER use something that we hate, find gross, hate touching, don't think of as a part of us, and want to get ride of to hurt a fellow womyn or anyone for that matter? I can tell you right now, the thought of doing any kind of penetration with my cock to any womyn, even my future partners, makes me want to puke. Not because I feel the act is gross, but because it is to much of a male thing for me to do and I don't want to go there. I don't want to feel like a man. I promise, this is true for a lot of transwomyn. Obviously, not all trans people are like that, but I can promise you a grand MAJORITY of trans people don't want to fucking hurt anyone in a bathroom. We just want to go in, do what we need too, wash our hands, leave and get on with our lives. Also, what about our safety?
The people who are so concerned about this, don't seem to give a flying fuck that my fellow trans sisters and brothers are getting harassed, beaten, killed and sexually assaulted in the "proper" bathroom, according to what is between their legs, very often. Apparently we don't count in the discussion about safety and bathrooms just the fucking cisgender people. Also what about us and being comfortable in the bathroom? We have every right to feel comfortable when we use the bathroom, but apparently we don't matter in that either. Elected officials need to stop being concerned with what is in our pants and start doing doing what the fuck is right, sadly I don't see this happening anytime soon.
Once again trans people get screwed because elected officials and the american public, media included (ie Family Guy), is so obsessed with what is between our legs. They don't care whats in our hearts, minds, or souls we are just defined to them by what is between our legs. I wish I could say that I have high hopes that my country would grow the fuck up and get the mind out of what is between my legs, but the truth is I don't. My body is just a fucking display for them to analysis and wonder about. My privacy and safety be damned as long as the cisgender people are happy. *Sigh*
Thats all for now.
bye...
The article talks about a New York bill that would have made it illegal to fire or deny housing to transgender people on the basis that they are trans. The bill had already passed the state assembly and hopes were high that the bill would pass the senate. Sadly, and yet unsurprisingly, the bill failed to pass the senate. The final vote was 12 against to 11 for. All the Republicans, unsurprisingly, voted against it and so did Dem Ruben Diaz. Had Ruben Diaz voted yes, the bill would have passed, but no the spineless fuck voted no and thus the transphobic assholes win again. The BIG concern for those who voted against bathroom use/other gender-segregated places. Basically, what is between our legs.
Unwarranted fears about people with penises going into the womyn's bathroom and what could happened, despite the fact that there is NO proof that anything would happen, other than us going to the fucking bathroom! Trans people are basically sexual deviants in these peoples eyes, especially transwomyn. Let me explain something to those out there that think that a transwomyn would EVER hurt someone with that fucking thing in our pants. A lot of us have a very strong hatred of the thing. Touching it very often grosses us out, some don't even see it as apart of them. Its for peeing and thats it. A lot of us go to great pains to hide it because we hate it so much. With all that said, what makes you think we would EVER use something that we hate, find gross, hate touching, don't think of as a part of us, and want to get ride of to hurt a fellow womyn or anyone for that matter? I can tell you right now, the thought of doing any kind of penetration with my cock to any womyn, even my future partners, makes me want to puke. Not because I feel the act is gross, but because it is to much of a male thing for me to do and I don't want to go there. I don't want to feel like a man. I promise, this is true for a lot of transwomyn. Obviously, not all trans people are like that, but I can promise you a grand MAJORITY of trans people don't want to fucking hurt anyone in a bathroom. We just want to go in, do what we need too, wash our hands, leave and get on with our lives. Also, what about our safety?
The people who are so concerned about this, don't seem to give a flying fuck that my fellow trans sisters and brothers are getting harassed, beaten, killed and sexually assaulted in the "proper" bathroom, according to what is between their legs, very often. Apparently we don't count in the discussion about safety and bathrooms just the fucking cisgender people. Also what about us and being comfortable in the bathroom? We have every right to feel comfortable when we use the bathroom, but apparently we don't matter in that either. Elected officials need to stop being concerned with what is in our pants and start doing doing what the fuck is right, sadly I don't see this happening anytime soon.
Once again trans people get screwed because elected officials and the american public, media included (ie Family Guy), is so obsessed with what is between our legs. They don't care whats in our hearts, minds, or souls we are just defined to them by what is between our legs. I wish I could say that I have high hopes that my country would grow the fuck up and get the mind out of what is between my legs, but the truth is I don't. My body is just a fucking display for them to analysis and wonder about. My privacy and safety be damned as long as the cisgender people are happy. *Sigh*
Thats all for now.
bye...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Enough is enough!
I'm tired of waiting.
Tired of waiting for cisgender LGB people to fucking grow a pair and advocate for trans people. Trans people have been fighting for your fucking asses since Stone Wall. Despite the fact that trans people have pretty much always been used and abused by you. We kept on fighting with courage and hoping against hope that you people would grow the fuck up and start battling for us. Its 2010 and yeah theres been some progress. Cisgender LGB people have finally started to know Sylvia Rivera's name and how great she was. I have meet some cisgender LGB people who are fighting for our rights and what we need, but there has been and kind of big leap. Nationally however, we still have a long way to go.
Tired of people like Barney "the fuck-head" Frank being obsessed with what is between my legs as opposed to who I am as a person. Frank who is obsessed with the fear of tranwomyn, who haven't gotten the surgery yet, to enter a womyn's bathroom because the transwomyn has a penis. Assuming that if we enter those bathrooms we will hurt the other womyn in there. Convicting us without any fucking proof that transwomyn have EVER done that! Subtly calling us rapists who just want access to these bathrooms to attack womyn. While not seeming to think, or to fucking care, that transwomyn could be attacked in men's rooms if we are forced to go in there. Somehow our safety isn't as important.
Tired of fighting for other people who don't seem to give a shit about my needs and my rights. Barney Frank, the HRC, and others are doing nothing to fight for us. They all claim that they are supportive of trans people, but in reality they could give a fuck. And yet they expect us to donate our time and money to them and support their causes. Get back to me when you fucking start fighting for my rights and really care about my issues, then we'll talk.
Tired of transphobic assholes like Dan Savage telling us to "wait" until others are ready before we transition and then calling us "selfish" if we don't http://www.thestranger.com/seattle/SavageLove?oid=13054 I understand that it takes time for family members to come to terms with this drastic change, but we should NOT have to wait for them to accept us to do what we know in our heart of hearts is the right thing to do. If the families need time and don't want us around for awhile, fine thats their choice and is between the trans person and their families, however, cisgender-white-gay-man Dan Savage has no fucking right to tell us that we are being selfish when we transition. Get off your fucking high horse Dan and stop acting like you understand what we go through you fucking prick!
Tired of cisgender LGB people, cisgender white gay men especially, NOT realizing that YES, they do have fucking privilege simply because they are cisgender. I would like to think that just like most people who have privilege (white, able bodied, straight, etc) that they don't realize that they have the privilege until somebody points it out to them. Well, to anyone who is cisgender reading this consider yourself informed. Maybe I have this all wrong, maybe they do realize that they have that privilege and just enjoy trying to keep us down and below them. Somebodies got to be at the bottom right? I would like to believe this isn't true, but honestly I don't know anymore.
Tired of feeling ignored because I am how I am and wont back down and apologize for who I am and how I feel. Cisgener LGB people seem to like it best when they can ignore the fact that I am trans. They don't want me to talk about as if I should keep it a secret and just ignore it myself. I'll admit I have tried that. Tried to hide it and ignore it and pretend it didn't exist, that didn't work out so well. Now I'm tired of hiding for them, I am transwomyn and I demand you treat me respect that you would any other person.
Tired of the media using us to get cheap laughs. Shows like Family Guy, which pretty much used every trans joke in the fucking book, and movies like "Ticked of Trannies with Knives" (oh yes real fucking movie! http://www.transadvocate.com/tribeca-film-festival-promotes-exploitation.htm), which shows transwomyn getting violently killed and is billed as a "comedy".
All of these things, and so many more, must stop in order for the trans movement to go anywhere! I call on my fellow isgender LGB people who see what I am talking about to talk to your friends about this. Inform them on about these things and work to turn them into allies for all trans people.
Tired of waiting for cisgender LGB people to fucking grow a pair and advocate for trans people. Trans people have been fighting for your fucking asses since Stone Wall. Despite the fact that trans people have pretty much always been used and abused by you. We kept on fighting with courage and hoping against hope that you people would grow the fuck up and start battling for us. Its 2010 and yeah theres been some progress. Cisgender LGB people have finally started to know Sylvia Rivera's name and how great she was. I have meet some cisgender LGB people who are fighting for our rights and what we need, but there has been and kind of big leap. Nationally however, we still have a long way to go.
Tired of people like Barney "the fuck-head" Frank being obsessed with what is between my legs as opposed to who I am as a person. Frank who is obsessed with the fear of tranwomyn, who haven't gotten the surgery yet, to enter a womyn's bathroom because the transwomyn has a penis. Assuming that if we enter those bathrooms we will hurt the other womyn in there. Convicting us without any fucking proof that transwomyn have EVER done that! Subtly calling us rapists who just want access to these bathrooms to attack womyn. While not seeming to think, or to fucking care, that transwomyn could be attacked in men's rooms if we are forced to go in there. Somehow our safety isn't as important.
Tired of fighting for other people who don't seem to give a shit about my needs and my rights. Barney Frank, the HRC, and others are doing nothing to fight for us. They all claim that they are supportive of trans people, but in reality they could give a fuck. And yet they expect us to donate our time and money to them and support their causes. Get back to me when you fucking start fighting for my rights and really care about my issues, then we'll talk.
Tired of transphobic assholes like Dan Savage telling us to "wait" until others are ready before we transition and then calling us "selfish" if we don't http://www.thestranger.com/seattle/SavageLove?oid=13054 I understand that it takes time for family members to come to terms with this drastic change, but we should NOT have to wait for them to accept us to do what we know in our heart of hearts is the right thing to do. If the families need time and don't want us around for awhile, fine thats their choice and is between the trans person and their families, however, cisgender-white-gay-man Dan Savage has no fucking right to tell us that we are being selfish when we transition. Get off your fucking high horse Dan and stop acting like you understand what we go through you fucking prick!
Tired of cisgender LGB people, cisgender white gay men especially, NOT realizing that YES, they do have fucking privilege simply because they are cisgender. I would like to think that just like most people who have privilege (white, able bodied, straight, etc) that they don't realize that they have the privilege until somebody points it out to them. Well, to anyone who is cisgender reading this consider yourself informed. Maybe I have this all wrong, maybe they do realize that they have that privilege and just enjoy trying to keep us down and below them. Somebodies got to be at the bottom right? I would like to believe this isn't true, but honestly I don't know anymore.
Tired of feeling ignored because I am how I am and wont back down and apologize for who I am and how I feel. Cisgener LGB people seem to like it best when they can ignore the fact that I am trans. They don't want me to talk about as if I should keep it a secret and just ignore it myself. I'll admit I have tried that. Tried to hide it and ignore it and pretend it didn't exist, that didn't work out so well. Now I'm tired of hiding for them, I am transwomyn and I demand you treat me respect that you would any other person.
Tired of the media using us to get cheap laughs. Shows like Family Guy, which pretty much used every trans joke in the fucking book, and movies like "Ticked of Trannies with Knives" (oh yes real fucking movie! http://www.transadvocate.com/tribeca-film-festival-promotes-exploitation.htm), which shows transwomyn getting violently killed and is billed as a "comedy".
All of these things, and so many more, must stop in order for the trans movement to go anywhere! I call on my fellow isgender LGB people who see what I am talking about to talk to your friends about this. Inform them on about these things and work to turn them into allies for all trans people.
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