Wow, its been a very long time since I have blogged anything! Summer sucks, I fucking hate it! I don't feel like anything happens in my life that is worth talking about. Job hunt was a failure, I have given up. No point looking for a job when I am leaving in less than a month. Had to ask my Grandma for money to pay my cellphone bill. On the plus side its almost August and on the 20th the girl from Ohio is moving here and she and I have plans to spend at least a few days together before I go back to school. I am SUPER excited about it =). I was also on a radio show to talk about a upcoming counter protest against the National Organization for Marriage (NOM) and I got invited back to talk about ENDA and how it fails at being trans inclusive. Not sure when that will happen, but I'll keep you posted. I'm not going to talk about that in this post, I have talked about that a lot already on my blog and I want to stay away from politics for this post. I'm not sure really what I want to talk about in this post, so I'm just going to write and see what happens.
I wonder about a lot of strange things that probably aren't worth wondering about. I wonder about why I ended up being trans. If there is such a thing as a past life what did I do that caused me to be trans in this one? Is there are reason for anyway or does it just happen? I wonder if there is a parallel universe out there what the parallel me is like. Are the he, she, gender-fluid, gender queer, or something much more exotic? Are the tea party conservative (I very much hope not!), socialist, anarchist or something completely different? I will admit that the latter is probably because I have been watching WAY to much science fiction lately (on the 2nd season of the 5th Doctor) and I can't really explain why I wonder about the former. It doesn't really matter why I am trans. There is something extremely special and amazing about being trans and queer womyn in our society.
I hate the phrase "it is what it is" as away to explain things, because I am always questioning why it is what is. What lead things to be this way. Why can't we change the way it is? "It is what it is" seems so permanent, like it is that way so it will always be that way. I often hear that phrase after my dad or my step mom say something racist, homophobic, transphobic, or some other ignorant comment and it drives me nuts. "It is what it is" seems to be a way out for people not what to fight for change because after all the world is what the world is and there is no point fighting all the injustice, right? I don't think anything is permanent. I think peoples thoughts, beliefs, feelings, issues, etc, etc can always change as long as they are open to those things.That is not to say that people need to change everything about themselves or what they believe, but everything can change if we want it to.
"It is what it is" to me is a way of giving up and just choosing to accept what the world gives us. Accept the fact that people suck as oppose to trying to be the kind of person that you want in the world and to serve as an example. Accepting the fact that laws are unjust and that is just the way it is. "It is what it is" doesn't have to be true, we just have to fight for that change and make "it is what it is" not be so anymore.
